I can't believe I actually spent three hours (6.30pm to 9.30pm) filing up all my stuff and clearing the rubbish on my desk. And now, there are like numerous files lying around, I think I'm gonna have difficulty recognising which file is for which subject. For Geography alone, I think I have like 6 files? 2 big ones and 4 smaller ones, and also the mankiller for Litho and human, and the thinner one on Hydro. Econs doesn't look good too. The stacks of revision booklets we purchased looked so thick and there are so many booklets of lecture notes.

Gosh. And I'm supposed to finish revising for all by the end of June holidays... This is starting to look crazy........

General Paper is this monday and I'm afraid I won't be able to complete the paper on time...

Math mock exam on statistics this thursday and I'm not prepared at all...

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All I want now is to be alone, sit at some corner and watch the world go by. I've learnt it all, that the earth don't stop spinning for any person in the world. And whether you spent your day worth of happiness or with sadness, life pretty much goes on for everyone. I wonder, many times, how I could get used to this. It just feels like no matter what I do, everything doesn't seem to go my way, nor end up the way I want it to, although it appeared so good at first. I guess God has a way of playing jokes on us. Things happen when we least expect it to, and when we got our hopes up, reality crashes in, taking everything away with it. Whatever I've done, never seem to be reciprocated and I don't know what I'm holding on to and I don't know what I'm waiting for. It feels so wrong, again, and somehow, I miss the times when nothing troubled me even though the emptiness I felt was overwhelming. But then again, after experiencing all the hurt back in the past, the numerous heart breaks, compared to then, this is nothing. Maybe you can say, I've already gotten used to this. No matter how unfair it seems, well, life IS unfair. What a laugh.